on random stuff..

haha nainggit ako kay issaw kaya nag blog post din. =))

>> si aling dionisia nasa pbb ang galing! haha.
>>pbb fan ako. :P nais ko lang sabihin. :P


..seriousness na..

>>namimiss ko na ang STAR peeps<<
like seriously. facebook and chatting. fun stuff yeah. pero hoho. kung craving ang tawag pag gusto mo ng pagkain. pwede rin ba sa tao gamitin ang term? haha. wala akong ibang maisip. :P parang nagccrave ako na makita ko na ulet sila. haha. ganon ang feeling. tapos nadidisappoint kasi ILC pa muli ang kita for most of them. most probably.

Hi there STAR peeps na makakabasa nito. I really miss you! :D

>>namimiss ko na ang block 22<<
haha. makikita ko na sila by thursday though. pero sad lang din kasi hindi kami lahat fortunate na malampasan ng matiwasay ang math 17. hay. nakakamiss rin yung mga kanchawan, kalokohan, damayan, mga biglaang block lunch. i just love these people kahit na sinasabi ng iba na sa simula lang naman daw close ang blocks but still. i really love them.

>>im very grateful to have passed math17<<
yeah, super, up to now. i just cant believe its over. lahat ng iyakan. yeah. math 17 is totally so the drama. hindi ko maiwasang isiping parang ang goal ng mga prof ay pahirapan at ibagsak kami. mabait ang prof namin though. and very sad nga dahil may mga hindi pinalad samin.

>>2nd sem<<
haha. 2nd sem na. im looking forward to it kahit na hindi ko gusto yung sched namin. especially on fridays dahil for sure gagabihin ako always. 5:30 pa ang tapos ng class and that means looooooooooooooooooooooooooooong lines sa bus terminal. hmmm. im thinking na mag fx na lang pag friday kaya lang ang gastos sobra. hay,

>>sembreak<<
kahit hindi ko masyado nafeel yung sembreak at first dahil sa kaiisip at kaaalala ng math 17. maligaya ako sa sembreak na ito, kahit pa shortened siya dahil sa mga bagyo. first sembreak kasi na walang tambak na gagawin. unlike highschool na sembreak ka nga, patong patong naman ang reports and papers and projects and other requirements to be passed pagresume ng classes. maligaya lang talag ako na maka experience ng tunay na sembreak :D

>>people<<
there are certain people lang na lagi ko naiisip lately, yung mga taong inaalala ko. si someone at si someone (hello RB. ikaw ang nagshare sakin neto). haha oh yes im worried about them, and yung mga taong nagpapadasal. yung mga specific na tao na nagpapadasal and yung mga specific na taong lagi kong pinagdadasal. at naiisip ko rin yung bago kong semi crush. haha. toogsh. bawal seryosohin. kaya nga semi crush lang ee. :D

>>barkada fusion<<
by accident barkada fusion. by accident nga ba? oh by fate? haha. yung mga taong naka close ko netong first sem. well initally, there's Dana, Elisha, Don, Kayemar, Val, and Krisca. ayon. seven kaming laging magkakasama nun then di na masyado sumama si Dana. tapos si Elisha at times with us, at times hindi. si Don namin dahil siya lang ang lalaki, siyempre naghahanap din ng lalaking friends and at times di rin namin siya kasama. si Kayemar, very versatile sa pakikipag socialize, kaya kahit saang group of people madaling magfit in. well, I can say na si Val and Krisca talaga ang naging very close sakin. haha PLUS the barkada fusion nga.

..Adie, Bea, Lea, Issa. haha sila ang mga kafusion. sad nga lang Bea is away na. pero yun, i never expected na makakaclose ko sila. they're as kalog and fun as the people stated above. haha. they add more to the fun. Bea, is naturally funny. si Lea, nakakatawa yung tawa niya, haha. (peace Lea). si Adie, amazing. haha. very sporstminded. si Issa, well, she's Issa. haha. nakakatuwang makaclose ang mga taong ito. naliligayahan akong napalapit ako sakanila. :D

>>baby ng bayan<<
that's what my mommies and daddies and ate's and kuya's call me sa yfc. well. kasi i started at a very young age and got used na yung mga tao ay older sakin. (no pun intended). and now na college na ako and all, some tease me na hindi na nga raw baby and blah and blah. yeah i get it. but namimiss ko pa rin yung super pagpaparamdam nila ng care sakin, i mean. nararamdaman ko parin but unlike nung before. i miss it talaga. call me spoiled or whatever. pero sakanila ko kasi nababawi ang affection na dapat sana ay makukuha or mabibigay ko sa isang biological kapatid na hindi naman nag eexist. hoho.


hoho. andami ko pa naiisip pero next time na, ang haba na yata ee, :D

hello 2nd sem

wow grabe lang ang tuesday na walang break
hello monday PE na 7am. goodluck kung mag on time ako jan. wah.
hello din sa friday na 1pm pa at hanggang 5.30
wat. i will miss my fridays na free na pag afternoon/

hello 2nd sem. goodbye math 17
wee. :D

semi-regional debut ko. :))

san ba kasi to nagsimula??

eto kwento.

bata pa lang. ever since naging aware ako kung ano ang DEBUT. nag-iimagine na ako ng sarili kong debut and everything about it. kung ano ang theme, sino ang pupunta, ang food, ang program, everything talaga. kasi super like ko yun. pag ako ang special sa araw ng iyon. :D

marami pang ibang kalokohan yun. sabi ko sa parents ko noon, kung ayaw nila mag throw ng party, okay na ko sa car. oha. haha. pero syempre biruan lang yon. then a few years back, sabi ni mama wag na daw ako mag throw ng party or something. ako naman madali kausap sabi ko, "okay!" pero deep down sad ako. kasi parang feel ko na nakaplan na lahat when that day comes pero sige lang. okay lang din. :)

at kahit na ganon, certain things make me still imagine my debut kahit alam kong hindi na mangyayari yun.

nung RYC kasi, while we were making the fiesta balls (click to see what fiesta balls are), out of nowhere, sabi ko,, "gusto ko nito for my debut".. haha at doon na nga nagsimula.

my 18 fiesta balls. tapos ang magbibigay ng messages ay 18 x kung ilan ang ting ting na nakatusok sa fiesta balls =)))))

at san nagmula ang semi-regional?????

dala ito ng kabaliwan ko kahihintay ng math 17 results.

dala na rin ng SEMI fever, na napulot ko sa pcg girls. :))



at ang benta lang ng mga napagplanuhan.
si RB ang kasabwat ko. =)))))))

at dahil jan..

EVENT HEAD: ira juntereal. =)))))))


ahahahahha.....
meron pa nga daw opening at closing worship. :)))
may parade din daw. hahahahha..

sino pwede mag service team??? :D

just contact me or ate ira. =))))))))

haha. tapos eto yung semi na nakalagay sa invitation..

"I'M INVITING YOU TO IMAGINE WITH ME MY SEMI-REGIONAL DEBUT".

hahahahahaha
oha. ang saya at ang enjoy lang.
comfort thought ko to.. :D

hoho. parang comfort food lang. :D

dami pang wala sa plano.. food, emcees, theme... hahaha. lahat na.
photographers, videographers.. :D

nagkwento si mama sakin lately na some people are convincing her na mag party nga on my debut coz its a once in a lifetime experience. pero naisip ko rin. hohoho. ang dami kong gustong iinvite. and if they cant all be there. wag na lang. tska di talaga feasible. lahat ng relatives namin. especially yung mga first degree, lahat nasa Cebu. sooooo. hahaha. mag ice cream at cake na lang. :D

haha. ayun lang. sabi nga sakin, "believe in what other people can do for you". awwww.

hahahaha. naeexcite ako magplano pa sa semi-regional imaginary debut na ito. :))

suggestions? :D

unfortunately

not so good timing...

yesterday, nanood kami ng pinsan ko ng movie. after that, we met up with her friend and stayed in mcdo rob manila. while we were there, nagsimula nang sumakit ang chan niya. since then, di na nawala yung pain. akala namin hyperacidity lang since she drank softdrinks and coffee, and etc. dami na naming theory. so i gave her antacid. nakadalawa pa siya sa sobrang sakit. tapos nagttry din siya magpupu pero the pain is still there.

nung nasa bus na kami, her classmated called her, asking if masakit ang chan niya. she suprisingly answered yes. her classmate told her that some of their other classmates feels the same at nagtatae at nagsusuka na sila. they think that it is because of the shrimp na kinain nila the night before. isasama na sana siya sa hospital but she refused. sa laguna na lang daw.

on the way home, super sumusuka siya. nasuka na niya lahat ng kinain niya for the day. so i texted mama and papa na sunduan kami pagdating and dumeretso na sa hospital. and in the hospital, sabi kailangan daw i-admit but mama refused kasi they're supposed to attend a retreat today until tomorrow.

but the doctor insisted, hindi daw kaya gawin sa bahay ang blah blah blah blah. thinking na palalabasin siya agad the next morning, pumayag na lang si mama but next morning, wala pa yung doctor na tumingin sa kanya so hindi siya marelease.. up until now she's in the hospital, feeling super okay since last night after niya mailabas lahat but wala paring doctor to give the order na madischarge na siya.

ako andito ngayon sa bahay kasi pinauwi muna nila ako. why unfortunate?


first, sobrang nagsuffer yung pinsan ko sa pain.
second, hindi natuloy sila mama sa retreat nila.
third, birthday ni papa ngayon and hindi man lang kami makapagcelebrateng maayos.

....sobrang naiiyak lang ako sa sobra sobrang sacrifice ni papa. siya lang kasi naiwan dun kagabi kasi hindi pwede magpuyat si mama because of her condition.....


sobrang bilib ko lang rin kay papa kasi despite sa sobrang inis niya sa hospital na hindi magawan ng paraan yung situation, he still manages to cheer everyone up, including himself.


Happy Birthday Papa!


my cousin is okay already, thanks for the prayers.

please pray for my dad too. :)

july 11, 2009... sad-happy happy-sad-ADIK

wala lang.
masamang simula ng araw.
wag na alamin kung bakit.

tapos lunch na!!!
kumain sa karate kid with mommy sharkee!! wee..
tapos chikahan and bonding with ate cristy and kuya ejae..
(kawawa nga pala nun si kuya ejae)

haha.
karate kid pa lang ang saya saya na.
sobrang pinasaya ako ni mommy sharky ng bongga.
bawing bawi yung badtrip na morning

tapos dinagdagan pa ni ate cristy at kuya ejae.
haha. ang saya yata pagtulungan ni kuya ejae (peace tayo kuya!) haha. :P
si ate cristy na mismo nagsabi sakin nun. haha.

tapos pichuran sa lrt at bus.
mejo seryosong usapan sa bus with sharky..
i love her so much!!!

tapos natutuwa siya kay ate cristy at kuya ejae.
mukha daw barney si kuya ejae.wahahahahahha.
tapos ang kulit kulit din ni ate cristy.

tapos emo nanaman ako dito sa bahay.
hindi talaga ako mapakali eh..

tapos ang kinahantungan ng lahat. adik ako.
may isang tao jan, mag aagree agad for sure.
hahahaha. yung isang taong araw araw akong tinatawag na adik.
lahat na lang ng gagawin ko adik daw.

haha. basta adik ako. weeeeee!!!
tasha pantasya...(cause im everybody's fantasy). haha. toogsh!!!

the freshie orientation

first two days of school = FUN!

haha. oo kinabahan din naman ako nung una eh pero salamat sa mga madaming ka-chorvahan ng mga ate at kuya naming FBCs before pa ang pasukan kaya hindi awkward ang first day. magkakakilala na kami sa mukha at meron din mga kilala mo na talaga, kaya hindi siya hard.

first day: three subjects, isa lang prof na sumipot. well, normal na daw ayon sa mga tao tao.

second day was funner. hahaha. watta word. we had the freshmen orientation and one class na hindi nanaman sinipot ng prof. but im here to blog about the freshie orientation.



orientation. a word that says :BORING. but noooooooooooooooo!!!!


haha. my freshmen orientation was fun fun fun. same goes for the rest of the freshies in UP Manila. yes, my dream school and campus. :)


the orietation started with a mass. a very solemn way to start our year. :)

then goes the program. for the program, all deans, including the chancellor and the vice chancellors, sat on stage so we could see them. first, there were various prayers lead by students from different religions, then the entrance of colors, national anthem and the fun part. haha.

the fun part:

the opening remarks by the chancellor. it was my favorite part. haha. nakakatuwa kasi, ang bias talaga ng opening remarks niya, all about UP Manila. haha. take note, the guest speaker was the faculty regent and she is from UP Diliman. Some fun lines (not exactly as they were said but it's the thought that counts. haha.)

"we all know that UP Diliman is the flagship campus but i dare say that UP Manila should be the flagship campus because it is where the university was born"

"sabi nila, you wouldn't graduate from UP nang hindi ka nakakasali sa kahit isang rally. In UP Diliman, when you rally, your audience are the trees, but in UP Manila, when you rally, your audience are the different Judges and the Justice Secretary inside the DOJ"

(talking about rallies)
uso daw talaga sa UP ang lightning rallies.
"do you know what a lightning rally is? don't worry. rallies are common in UP, in fact before this opening exercises for the freshmen ends, there would be a demonstration for you on how to properly conduct a lightning rally, so when they come in and rally, don't be scared, no need to run to the exit doors"

....true enough, after ng introduction of the speaker,may mga nag rally nga and we couldn't help but laugh. haha. kasi nagmukhang scripted eh. hahaha.


the introduction of the speaker was fun too. The speader was introduced by the chairman of the student counil.

"Someone asked, who here has the most friends on facebook? Then she(the guest speaker) stood up and waved her hand like she won the 100 million jackpot, and i couldn't accept it at that time. i couldn't believe that she broke my record of 650 friends on facebook, and so, i devised a plan. i would add her on face book and monitor her friend invites and suggestions"


marami pa nangyari but i couldn't remeber the details. antok na ko. haha.

well, there were different presentations but the best presentation was the one by the Dean of the College of Music, mistakenly introduced as the Dean of the College of Medicine. haha.

halimaw siya kumanta. tenor. :P amazing voice. inspiring.


maraming presentations. yung iba maganda, yung iba nagkalat. haha pero fun all in all.
till here. im sleepy. :)

my love of dancing...

So what is it with dancing that i love so much?? I can't tell. I can't explain. It's fun but I know it's more than that.

Well here's my little story....

I was born flat footed. My parents were worried about that because it wasn't really a good thing. So the doctor suggested that they enroll me in a ballet class for me to develop the arcs of my feet, and tada! haha. Lucky enough, there was a ballet school very near to our house.

So I was five years old at that time. I really can't remember those first few years of my ballet dancing. I was five. Haha. Through the years, I really forgot the purpose of my ballet dancing. I just liked dancing so much that I fell in love with it.

magtatagalog na ako. haha.

So, for the first few years, summer lang ako nag-eenroll tapos hindi rin ako sumasali dun sa sa annual summer recitals nila. ang mahal kasi. very expensive talaga. imagine you pay a recital fee na sobrang mahal regardless of how many performances you will have on the recital. at that time, i enrolled in ballet only so mejo expensive talaga kung magrerecital kasi at most, 2 numbers lang ang mapeperform ko.

as i grew older, nagiging aware na ako sa love ko sa pagsasayaw. why love? kasi i always knew that i wan't the best dancer present in that school, or even in a ballet class. plus.. my body, my weight and my feet. i was chubby(para cute pakinggan), i was heavy and my feet/legs were turned in(ballet requires feet turned out) and they were flat(pointing my feet was very hard for me) but i still look forward to always attend my ballet class.

i think i was 9 or whatever, i can't remember my exact age when i started enrolling even during the school year. during the school year., ballet classes are scheduled every saturday. that was the time na nag enroll na din ako sa ibang dance classes, namely modern jazz and hawaiian. it became more expensive. so my mom and i had a deal, i'll stop my dancing when i reach highscool. i said yes, i didn't know that it was going to be hard for me.

and so, of course dumating yung panahong maghhayskul na ko, but i didn't stop dancing. i never remembered convincing my mom na magcontinue ako sa dancing ako. i think it just happened.

during highschool, i was already one of the seniors in the ballet school. it was fun. i still wasn't the best dancer among us. hindi ako yung tipong binibigyan ng solo parts or palaging napupuri during class. ako yung tipong, tinutulungan para makahabol. yung tipong pagdating sa turns, perfect na nila ang triple pirrouette pero sinsimulan ko palang aralin ang double pirrouette. ako pa nga yung biggest samin eh. i was always conscious with my figure when i dance. but i just enjoyed.

then, came the time na kelangan na talaga mag stop. hindi rin hiningi ni mama sakin na magstop na, i just knew i had to. it was sacrifice. more on this later... my last summer recital was may 2008. just before my last year in highschool. it is hard and sad but i really had to let it go.

so that was the story, but there is more to that.



as i danced my way through the years, i already forgot why i was dancing ballet but dancing was a real blessing to me.. being an only child, it was the first way for me to step out of my shell and say  hello to the world.

before dancing, hindi ako maingay. promise! haha. ako yung batang hindi talaga magsasalita at uupo na lang sa isang tabi sa isang event dahil nahihiya ako. ako yun. ako yung tipong kahit mawawala na ako, iiyak na lang ako pero hindi talaga ako magtatanong o kakausap ng kahit na sinong tao. dancing was the first step for me to socialize. aside from school, tinuro sakin ng pagsasayaw kung pano makikisama sa iba't ibang uri ng mga tao. dancing was a wonderful way to learn that.

also, dancing taught me how to be independent. here's how.. sa recitals namin, ang mga babies and little girls, pwede pa magsama ng mga parents or yayas sa backstage to fix their things, hair, costumes, do their make-up, help them change clothes and stuff like that pero pag mejo ate ka na, mga 10 siguro, hindi na pwede. natuto ako mag - ayos ng gamit, ayusin ang sarili kong buhok, put on make-up, do very quick changes, yung tipong after ng dance mo, 3 mins performance lang, tapos may sayaw ka na ulit. ganon. it helped me be the independent person i am now.


another wonderful thing is that dancing taught me to appreciate my blessings. how? i am an only child, i learned that if i wasn't, i wouldn't have experienced what i am talking about now, dancing. it came to my senses back then na it was something special, a gift that may parents granted me for a long time. kung baga, ito na yung pinaka luho ko sa buhay.

in connection to that, dancing taught me to work for what i wanted.. two ways.. first: kahit na only child ako, i wasn't a spoiled one. so noon, if i wanted to join the recital or enroll in an additional dance class, i had to work for it. for example, i had to get a medal or maintain my ranking in school or get promoted in my ballet class. second: persevering for my own improvement. si mama kasi, stage mother. supportive pagdating sa mga ganitong bagay. always proud when im on stage. so she always pushed me to improve my dancing skills so i would look better on stage.

dancing also gave me a wonderful privilege: to perform on stage. and not just a stage. stage lang naman ng Cultural Center of the Philippines. both the little theater, and the big theater (nicanor abelardo theater). when im on stage, it was love, it was a dream, it was a fulfillment, it was heaven for a dancer like me.


siyempre here goes the hard part.

dancing taught me sacrifice and discipline. technically, it taught me to sacrifice my time. lots of time. time with my family and time to rest. hindi lang yun. noon, strict ako sa food ko. sacrifice those delicious fatty foods. hahaha. well more of discipline on that. discipline was very important.


well dancing made me do a very big sacrifice. when i felt that it was almost time to stop, i couldn't even think of it. it was a personal decision,  not something na pinilit akong gawin.

during highschool, YFC was a big part of my life and i had to balance my extra time between YFC and dancing. i had to choose. it was hard. why? for some time, dancing was my passion, as a little girl i told my mom that when i grow up, i would be "The Dancing Doctor"..(even as a child, i had crazy dreams).

i really don't know what made me do it but it just happened. my heart was really called to YFC. i cried over it. that was how i loved dancing. and now, i look at my friends pictures, and i miss the fun and all the things that i experiece and learn with dancing. i just cried over it all over again.

sabi nga nila, i could still dance, yes of course. but it's different now though. i want to go back to my beloved ballet school and be with them and do it all over again but i know God was with me when i made my decision, so i know it is His plan.




its too long. i have to end this.
i love dancing and will always do.
the memories will forever be with me. :)

twinkle twinkle super STARS!

one thing about me.. i have a problem with letting go and moving on.. but this feeling i have right now.. it's definitely something i don't want to let go.. come on.. it's the STAR SHouT fever!!

haha. parang emo lang yung start noh. echos lang. :P

katulad nga ng sabi ko kay ate tin, matindi pa 'to sa influenza a(h1n1). haha. grabe kasi kung tamaan lahat ng nagpunta sa SHouT. dito pa lang sa multiply eh, from looking at the pictures, to commenting on them, to laughing alone in front of the pc, to reminiscing everything you experienced, talagang nakaka-high sa feeling diba?.. :)


last night, ka-chat ko si kuya sonny. tapos kinamusta niya ako. kamusta daw ang after shout ko.. at sabi ko.. eto, di parin makaget over.. sabi naman niya, oo nga daw, lahat nga daw tayo ay napakasaya.. i guess it goes on for everybody who was there.. even after going home, we still have that amazing, sparkling smile on our faces.

personally kasi for me, ang hindi ko talaga ma-get over is yung joy and love na natanggap ko sa SHouT na yun. plus plus plus plus plus the FUN. of course! who would not forget the fun diba??

siyempre hindi rin mawawala ang mga technical na bagay na natutunan natin plus the bonggang bonggang exam, na talaga namang nakapag pa information overload sa ating mga utak.. pero despite na nakaka internal hemorrage talaga yung pagka technical ng mga bagay na yun, those are the things na talaga namang magiging helpful sa pag-eevangelize natin ng mga youth in our areas right? and i guess it helped us enhance what we already know rin. additional information ba. :)


at sino bang hindi makakalimot sa memory verses.. na hindi naman talaga natin tuluyan namemorize.. haha.

of course, sinong hindi makakatanda sa adventure camp?.. it was a learning experience that was at the same time fun. dito, marami tayong natutunan. mula sa pag mementor natin, sa pagendure, hanggang sa pagtulong, hanggang sa pagencourage, at ang walang katapusang asaran sa magkabilang team.. :)


and syempre, hindi ganito ka-meaningful ang experience ng lahat kung wala yung mga espesyal na tao na gumabay sa atin along the way.. :) special thanks to these people who offered their time and lives to serve God and His people.. :)




well SHouT fever is about to fade now.. pero kahit tapos na, marami namang maiiwan sa mga puso natin and after all, what was important was the experience that God let us have.. and the relationships the we have built. kahit magkakalayo na tayo ngayon, alam natin na kahit san pa tayo sa calabarzonmi magpunta, may isa tayong kapatid dun na tatanggapin tayo. at ngayon, mas confident nating haharapin ang mga pagsubok na darating kasi alam natin na somewhere in calabarzonmi, there's someone praying for us.. :)





i love and miss you STARS! Godbless everyone!

kaibigan

matatakutin lang talaga ako eh noh.


masaya ako ngayong linggong 'to.
well actually, to specific days this week made me happy.
but it gave me a different high the whole week. :)


ang sarap lang sa pakiramdam na mawala lahat ng takot mo kasi nangyari na lahat.


matapos ang malateleserye niyong palitan ng linya, in english pa, kasama narin dito ang matinding constructive criticism tungkol sa pagkatao mo, akala mo hindi na maayos ulit ang lahat. kasi nakita mo na ang "the other side" niya. akala mo hindi na maayos muli ang lahat kasi alam mo na masungit siya. soooooooobrang sungit. haha.


matapos nga ang nasabing insidente, alam mo na sa muli niyong pagkikita, maaring hindi mo siya muling makausap ng harapan dahil sa mga nasabi niyo sa isa't isa. nalulungkot karin dahil nga sa baka matagalan pa bago maibalik sa dati ang lahat. ang tawanan, ang asaran, ang paghalakhak ng inyong mga puso at pagkislap ng mga mata sa mga oras na magkasama kayo. at kahit na sinabi ng isang kaibigan na "sigurado, kakausapin ka nun, kahit hi, hello, o kahit tango lang", nariyan parin ang takot sa iyong puso.


dumating ang araw ng muling pagkikita, at tama nga ang hinala mo, hindi ka nga niya kinikibo. aba! napakasungit nga talaga! ngunit sa bawat sandaling magaabot ng tingin ang inyong mga mata, tila ba lumulukso ang puso mo sa hindi malamang kadahilanan. at sa pag-awit ng inyong mga puso, kasabay ng pag-aabot tingin ng mga mata, unti-unti ring lumabas ang mga ngiti.


marunong naman pala siya ngumiti. marunong naman talaga. ayaw lang kasi ilabas. at dahil lumabas na ang mga ngiti, hindi mo napansing nawala na ang takot sa iyong puso.


sa mapaglarong paraan, pinariringgan mo siya. sinasabi mo sa iba na "buti ka pa kinakausap  ako at nginingitian ako". at paulit-ulit mong sinasabi dahil alam mong naririnig ka niya, at hindi nagtagal lumabas na rin ang mga salitang sayo patungo. isang simpleng usapan na kinabibilangan ng marami. isang masayang usapan na puro tawanan. sa kabila nito,alam mong may mga natatanging salitang sa iyo niya talaga sinabi.


at doon mo lang napansing napawi na ang takot. masaya ka. alam mo sa puso't isip mo na hindi iyon ang mga una at huling salitang sasabihin niya sa iyo.


at sa paglabas niyo kasama ang mga kaibigan, sa kasiyahan, alam mong bumalik na sa dati ang lahat. nagsasaya kayong muli ng magkasama. nag-uusap na tulad ng dati. nag-uusap na para bang walang nangyaring malateleseryeng palitan ng linya sa mga linggong nagdaan. masaya nag puso mo. humahalakhak.


muling nag-uusap. muling nagtatawanan. muling naghahawak kamay. muling nagsasaya. lahat muling nangyari ng magkasama. at sa tuwing mag-aabot tingin muli ang mga mata, alam mong naroon parin ang kakaibang kislap. naroon parin ang paglundag ng puso. naroon parin siya.



totoo sa kanyang mga salita, oo, magkaibigan parin kami. tama ka na sa simula palang, totoo siyang kaibigan. na handa sabihin sa iyo laaaaaaahhhhhhaaaaaaaaaatt kapintasan at kamalian mo, kahit na ikagalit o ikatampo mo pa ito. handa niya sabihin ang lahat sa iyo ng may katotohanan dahil alam niyang makabubuti ito para sayo. at handa siyang magmatigas o patigasin ang kanyang puso at sabihing, wala siyang pakialam sayo para ikaw mismo ang maging matatag para sa sarili mo.



tama rin siya sa mga sinabi niya sayo noon na "mayroon tayong dakilang pagkakaibigan, magsimula tayo doon",


at sa muling pagbabalik ng lahat sa dati:

oo. ganun ka pa rin. sarcastic
oo. masungit ka parin.
oo. inaasar mo parin ako.
oo. iniiwan mo parin ako palagi.

pero...

oo. bagay sayo ang bagong buhok mo.
oo. sosyal na ang school at ID mo

at oo.

pinasasaya mo parin ako. :)




at inay. mommy sharky, kaya ako nakangiti sa bus, kasi oo, masaya ako dahil sa lahat ng sinabi ko. :))


at ikaw. yes you. sayaw ka na lang ng jai ho. :P

wee. :P

si mommy sharky.

dahil mahal ko si Sharinah Guillen Carreon.

haha. infairness.. namimiss ko na si mommy sharky..
di bale. pag dating ng pasukan, for sure hindi nanaman natin mamimiss ang isa't isa.

sharky: di bale n miss moq ngeon
sharky: arawaraw ulit tau magkikita
tasha: haha
tasha: di naman
tasha: depende
tasha: haha
tasha: bahala na
sharky: oonga..
sharky: pero feeling ko arawaraw
sharky: hehe
tasha: feeling mo lang yun
tasha: feeler ka ha
tasha: hahaha

oh diba. bongga. haha.
hay nako mommy sharky. sobrang mahal na talaga kita.
magpakasal na tayo.
oliver, nauna naman ako sakanya ee.
haha. jukk. :P


bakit ba kasi sobrang labs na kita eh hindi ka naman lababol?
eto kasi yata yun eh..

• pag nagkikita tayo at sinasabi kong namiss kita, sagot mo lang "yuck"
• pag nagsawa kang pagtripan si diana. for sure ako ang next.
• inaatake mo ako pag nagsswimming. hindi lang pala ako pati pala si diana.
• kakain tayo ng marami pag magkasama kahit na "diet" kuno tayo kasi nagpapapayat.
• pag inalok kita ng inumin at pagkain, hindi mo tinatanggihan. kahit more than half pa yung laman, chances are, ibabalik mo sakin, balat na lang. haha.
• nung nareceive mo yung gm ko sa mga nanay nanayan ko nung mother's day, nagdrama ka pa. sabi mo "akala ko nakalimutan mo na eh". feeler ka talaga. parang ikaw na totoo kong nanay ah. :P
• sinusuportahan mo ako sa mga kalandian ko. haha. eto example:

tasha: ang landi ko nga eh
sharky: ha bkt?
tasha: may kras na ako agad
tasha: haha
sharky: may gwapo?
sharky: WAW
sharky: nak grabe ka
sharky: manang mana
sharky: sa medical p nga lang may kras n rin ako e
sharky: hapon
tasha: haha
tasha: ako din
sharky: HAHAHAHA
tasha: sa medical ko siya nakilala
tasha: eh PH din
sharky: HAHAAHAHA
sharky: waw
tasha: tapos parehas kami na first friends sa UP
tasha: haha
sharky: kablock mo?
tasha: hindi eh
tasha: pero katext ko
tasha: haha
sharky: waw
tasha: siya una ko naging katext
tasha: haha
tasha: landi noh?
sharky: wafu? xempre duh?!
sharky: hehe
tasha: may itsura
tasha: mukhang mabait
sharky: kamuka ni DISU?
tasha: actually mabait talaga
tasha: hahahaha
sharky: hehe
tasha: hindi
tasha: eeeeeeewwwwwwww
sharky: mukang mabait naman si disu ha
sharky: HAHAHAHA
tasha: di hamak na mas gawapo siya kay disu
tasha: haha
tasha: watever

• pag may lakad tayo. palagi akong late. tapos habang inaantay mo ako, itetext mo ako ng napakaraming text na pare parehas lang naman ang laman. as in flood. tapos pagdating sa bus. tatanungin kita. "unli ka ba". sagot mo naman "hindi". oha. ganun mo rin yata ako pinag aaksayahan ng load. haha.
• pag may lakad tayo. alam mo ng malelate talaga ako. kaya nung minsan, tinagalan mong umalis ng bahay. nangyari tuloy, nauna pa ako sayo. (first time!) haha.
• pag may lakad tayo at naiinip ka nang hintayin ako dahil late ako. iniiwan mo na ako. sumasakay ka na sa bus.
  
• pag may lakad tayo at hinihintay mo na ako, tatawagan mo po ako sa phone kahit minsan alam mo namang nasa bahay pa ako. :P
• pag nagddrama ako. dinadamayan mo ako pero pinapatawa mo parin ako. for example:
  

sharky: wag mo n lng damdamin
tasha: haha
sharky: anyway tapos mo nang damdamin
tasha: di ko na nga lang kinakausap unless importante or kelangan eh
tasha: haha
tasha: oo
tasha: tapos ko na nga damdamin
sharky: aun ok n un
sharky: un n lng
tasha: hahahah
tasha: azar kausap eh
sharky: wala n rin akong ma say kc ok k n ee
sharky: hehe
tasha: sabihin mo nga sakanya nasa pilipinas siya at pilipino siya kaya wag siyang english ng english
tasha: hahahahaa
sharky: haha
sharky: aun nagulat din aq
sharky: sakanya
sharky: harsh
tasha: i know
tasha: nagulat din ako
sharky: nakakatakot nga i agree
tasha: diba nga sabi ko
sharky: AHAHAHA
tasha: ________ ikaw ba to???
tasha: haha
tasha: grabe talaga
tasha: kung ikaw kaya nsa kalagayan ko then and there
tasha: feeling ko stalker siya eh
tasha: hahaha
tasha: nakakatakot kaya tlaaga
sharky: ganun?!
sharky: si mon? joke
tasha: haha
sharky: haha
tasha: tae
tasha: si __________
tasha: haha
tasha: ang gugulo mo
sharky: joke lng un
sharky: ol xa
sharky: haha
sharky: kanina p pala
tasha: sino??
sharky: si ___________
tasha: oo nga
tasha: eh ano gusto mo gawin ko?
tasha: awayin ko naman
tasha: haha
sharky: hnd naman keo nakapagusap?
tasha: di na noh
sharky: wala
sharky: ahahaha
tasha: nakapag usap nanaman
tasha: about _____ lang
sharky: tanungin mo ng 1+1
tasha: minsan sinubukan kong kamustahin
tasha: haha
tasha: tapos
tasha: yun
tasha: di naman sumasagot kapag tinopak
tasha: haha
tasha: sabay na lang natin tanungin ng 1+1
tasha: haha
tasha: game
tasha: haha
sharky: weird nga nun e minsan good mood minsan serioso
sharky: hehe
tasha: oo bad trip
tasha: nung dati naman
sharky: hehe
tasha: hindi naman siya ganyan pag kausap ko
tasha: try mo kausapin ngayon
sharky: ____ honorable mention e
tasha: haha
tasha: talino nga eh

oha. aliw lang.

• minsan seryoso ko naman makiramay. parang ganito:

sharky: si _______? good spexal friend (dati)
sharky: HAHAHA
tasha: haha
tasha: he's still special
tasha: haha
tasha: kaya lang ewan ko
tasha: ang cold niya sakin
tasha: kausapin mo nga yun
sharky: sa lunes n
sharky: hnd nagrereply e
sharky: ayoko sa mga taong di nagrereply
tasha: hahahaha
tasha: kamustahin mo lang
tasha: guluhin mo buhay
tasha: hahahaha
tasha: di tumatalab sakin eh
tasha: pero sabi niya friendsparin daw kami
tasha: haha
sharky: nagtatampo lng un
sharky: HAHA
sharky: naiinarts
sharky: sa susunod maingay n ulit un
tasha: grabe
tasha: siya pa may K magtampo
tasha: ako nga dapat magalit eh
tasha: haha
tasha: tingnan lang natin sa monday
tasha: pero feel ko di ako kakausapin non eh
tasha: haha
sharky: kakausapin k nun
sharky: hi hello
sharky: xur un
sharky: or tango
sharky: lilipas din yan
sharky:
tasha: haha
sharky: i biliv
tasha: tango??
tasha: ah nod
tasha: hahaha
tasha: watever
sharky: grabe
tasha: but not like before
sharky: nahawa k n sa english
sharky: HEHE

(oh yes. seryoso na yang state na yan. :)))

• kahit magdamag pa pag usapan kung sino man ang lalake ko, okay lang. di ka nagsasawa sa kwento ko at sinasakyan mo lang. for example:

tasha: pero siyempre dabest gradball
tasha: haha
tasha: tae
tasha: kinileg lang ako nun eh
tasha: tapos wala na
tasha: hahaha
tasha: badtrip
sharky: hehe
sharky: ganun
tasha: oo
tasha: ay nako
tasha: hanggang airport nakangiti ako
tasha: hahahahaha
sharky: waa
sharky: hehe
tasha: haha
tasha: parang tanga lang
sharky: mabuti di k ningitian ng stewardess
tasha: haha
tasha: tulog na ako sa airplane
sharky: nakangiti lng pala sila parati
tasha: haha
sharky: aaah
tasha: oo tama ka
tasha: nakangiti lang sila parati
tasha: haha
sharky: na tumbok ko din!
tasha: hahaha
tasha: tumpak!!!

• pagkatapos mo akong sakyan. pagttripan naman natin si lalake. parang ganito:

tasha: hahaha
tasha: tumpak!!!
tasha: dali tanong natin siya ng 1+1
tasha: hahaha
sharky: haha
sharky: alam nea kaya un
tasha: malay ko
sharky: hnd kasi complicado un ee
sharky: haha
tasha: alam pa ba niya ang basics??
tasha: haha
tasha: try natin
tasha: dali game
sharky: tanungin mo kung panu ibold ung letters sa html
sharky: haha
tasha: ayaku nga
tasha: marunong naman ako nun
tasha: yata
tasha: nakalimutan ko lang
tasha: hahaha
tasha: dali sabay tao
tasha: *tayo
tasha: para masay
tasha: haha
tasha: *masaya
sharky: ayoko nga
sharky: haha
sharky: wala akong lakas
tasha: kurni mo naman
tasha: haha
sharky: haha

• nilalandi natin ang isa't isa. like this:

tasha: haha
tasha: okei
tasha: teka
tasha: brb
sharky: waaah
sharky: HAHAHA
sharky: ok
tasha: im baaaaaaaacccccccckkkkk.
sharky: talaga?
sharky: pano k nakakapagtype?
sharky: kung nakatalikod ka?
tasha: haha
tasha: ay nakuuu
tasha: kurne ka talaga
sharky: tash
sharky: kht naman ganu katagal k p mawala e
tasha: yeah?
sharky: u will always remain on my mind
tasha: gusto ko heart
sharky: in my heart in my soul
tasha: haha
sharky: baby
tasha: ayun naman pala eh
tasha: hahaha
sharky: ur the meaning of my life
tasha: ang landeeeeeeeee
tasha: hahahaha
sharky: ur the inspiration
sharky: woo~
tasha: hindi ako dictionary
tasha: hahahahahahaha
tasha: wahahahahha
tasha: aylavet!!
sharky: ha?
sharky: dictionary?
sharky: ur the only word i know
tasha: meaning of my life
tasha: hahaha
tasha: watever mommy
tasha: gakgakgak
sharky: yuck
sharky: hehe
tasha: landee na to the highest level
tasha: hahaha
sharky: haha
sharky: im always on my highest level when im with you
tasha: ay ganon
tasha: haha
tasha: bongga ko naman!!
tasha: hahaha
sharky: opo
sharky: pero mas bongga ka
sharky: wag lalaki ulo!
sharky: HAHAHA

• marami tayong alam sa isa't - isa. marami ding hindi. haha. marami nga ba? basta yun
• kahit hindi ako ang broadcasted best friend mo. pinagkakatiwala mo parin sa akin ang mga sikreto mo. at ganun din naman ako sayo.
• kahit hindi ako ang broadcasted best friend mo. alam kong mahal mo parin ako. palagi mo sinasabi sa akin eh. haha. tska haller. anak mo kaya ako. kung papipiliin ka. yung iba mong best friend o ako na anak mo na, bestfriend mo pa.? haha. adik lang.

• at higit sa lahat. kahit ano pa gawin mo. palagi mo lang ako napapatawa ng walang ka-effort effort. oha. haha
  

aylabyu mommy shark.
hindi ko rin alam kung bakit ko ginawa to eh.
:P

not bothering to ask.

"People don’t bother to ask other people’s feelings ‘cause they are just people. But if they are more than people, if they are friends or family, they would bother to ask you about your pains and happiness. Because in as much as they value your character, such as your strength, they also value your belongingness to their lives."

                                                                      -ate ea





ano ba ito. apektado nanaman. ahaha. toogsh.
mali ito. haha. pero sige post parin. :P

kailan at paano.

sa totoo lang, hindi ko rin alam.

sabi ko kasi, mag aantay ako ng perfect time. akala ko rin alam ko kung kailan yung perfect time eh pero hindi rin pala. paano ko nga ba malalaman?

nag aantay ako. ng ano? hindi ko rin alam. natatakot rin naman ako na gumawa ng kung ano, baka kasi "hindi pa tama ang oras". ayan. hindi ko talaga alam kung kailan.

may nag sabi din kasi sakin na, "there'll be no perfect time but now kasi baka habang hinihintay mo ang perfect time na yun ay lalo kang nalulungkot at nanghihina.. until walang wala ka nang lakas.."

paano?

kung gagawin ko na ngayon, ano ba ang dapat kong gawin?? hindi ko rin alam. alam kong kinakausap Niya ako sa lahat ng paraan. pero parang "i heard but i didn't listen". whoo. mahirap din pala i-absorb when it's there. or baka hindi ko lang talaga alam kung paano o baka pinangungunahan lang ulit ako ng takot.

ayun. yun pala yun.
i need prayers friends.. :)

sabi ko, saka na ako magrereak, pag nakapag isip na ako. pero wala rin akong maisip eh. hahaha. ayun. great! sarap magsulat! :)

it's been a while..

grabe.. last blog post ko.. oct 11 pa.. super busy ko na yata..

and a lot has happened.. whooo. a whole lot talaga..

and right now.. im down..

yes, im happy with what i have acheived and all.. but mostly i feel down.. but its oki.. kaya ko to.. :)

lapit na graduation.. lapit na grad ball.. lapit na magcollege..

super kabado and excited at the same time..

new chapter nanaman..

lapit narin ILC.. hello Cebu, my love.

ay grabe.. random blog ito. whoo.

til next time.