At dahil relatively safe pa naman dito. dito na lang :)
KINIKILIG AKO. at OA ito. there i go. And i am hating myself for feeling it. Not that i’m not savoring and enjoying it as i was advised by few people i’ve told; pero alam ko lang na MALING MALI, as i my Math17 prof would say it.
OA dahil: It all happened in a very short span of time. OA din kasi ngayon lang ako literal na nakafeel ng butterflies sa kileg. hindi nga lang sa stomach, sa heart area and it lasts for so lang pero can be caused by just a single text. OA na talaga kasi in that short span of time, nagkakaganito ako.
Mali talaga kasi most probably i am just misled. Or assumera ako. :)). Pero i am seriously not assuming anything in this situation. It’s just that the things that he tells me, yun talaga yung BOOM!! grabeee. Dito nanaman kasi pumapasok yung always and forever tanong. The question: Is he implying something or ganon lang talaga siya? Unless may declaration, unless someone speaks about feelings and all, you can’t tell and you can’t assume.
I can’t assume and I can’t do anything about it. Kasi nga katulad ng sinabi sakin ng isang ate, ang sisters, they are precious gems, they are just waiting to be found. Hindi sila yung naghahanap, hindi sila yung nagsspeak up. Nung time na sinabi sakin yun, i was really crushed kasi i’ve made those mistakes before and I don’t wanna make them again. And with this situation at present. I made a promise that surely will save me from possible future heartaches. I made a promise that from this moment on, i will be a sister, a precious gem, i will just wait, i will be patient.
That’s why hindi ko siya maishare at maikwento sa mga taong gusto ko na pagkwentuhan. Gusto kong sabihin na, Hey! kinikilig ako. Pero after that? waley. Nagkafeeling lang ako ng ganon. Yun na. Not enough basis for kwento and all. Subjective ang feelings. Just little negligible stuff that happened.I’m not writing it here also because i want to tell the whole world about it. I am writing it here kasi i need an outlet, i can’t contain the feeling anymore.
At dahil alam kong OA na yung feeling ko, napadasal na lang din ako. Hindi dahil gusto kong ipagdasal yung tao. Mas OA yun. Napadasal ako. Kasi natatakot ako para sa puso ko. Kasi pag nagpatuloy to, i know i will be crushed. Napadasal ako kasi alam kong hindi pa panahon sa mga gantong bagay para seryosohin. SO NOT! Napadasal ako kasi forever ko nang pinagdadasal na my heart be guarded. Kasi sobrang fragile ng puso. And i know God is writing my love story. :)
OA ko diba? i know i know. At para sa mga nagbasa hanggang dito na may care sa pinagsasasabi ko, you can laugh at me pero grabe hindi ko narin naiintindihan ang feeling. ang OA kasi talaga. OA yung hormones ko. Kei?
Kung tinapos mong basahin to. magaling! ang tiyaga mo :))
