I always say I am fine when asked, but it is the wrong answer. I don't want to disappoint those who always worry.

Kamusta??

Hindi ko talaga alam kung bakit hindi ko na nasasagot ng maayos ang tanong na yan. As in. Sumasagot ako ng matinong sagot pero alam ko na hindi yon talaga ang gusto at dapat kong isagot. Hindi na ako nagsshare. Pero feeling ko kailangan. Pero pag andon na, hindi ko nanaman nasasabi. Pffft. Strange Me. Strange Feeling. Not helping :|.

T.T

DAHIL MAGUGULO KAYO :))

At dahil relatively safe pa naman dito. dito na lang :)

KINIKILIG AKO. at OA ito. there i go. And i am hating myself for feeling it. Not that i’m not savoring and enjoying it as i was advised by few people i’ve told; pero alam ko lang na MALING MALI, as i my Math17 prof would say it.

OA dahil: It all happened in a very short span of time. OA din kasi ngayon lang ako literal na nakafeel ng butterflies sa kileg. hindi nga lang sa stomach, sa heart area and it lasts for so lang pero can be caused by just a single text. OA na talaga kasi in that short span of time, nagkakaganito ako.

Mali talaga kasi most probably i am just misled. Or assumera ako. :)). Pero i am seriously not assuming anything in this situation. It’s just that the things that he tells me, yun talaga yung BOOM!! grabeee. Dito nanaman kasi pumapasok yung always and forever tanong. The question: Is he implying something or ganon lang talaga siya? Unless may declaration, unless someone speaks about feelings and all, you can’t tell and you can’t assume.

I can’t assume and I can’t do anything about it. Kasi nga katulad ng sinabi sakin ng isang ate, ang sisters, they are precious gems, they are just waiting to be found. Hindi sila yung naghahanap, hindi sila yung nagsspeak up. Nung time na sinabi sakin yun, i was really crushed kasi i’ve made those mistakes before and I don’t wanna make them again. And with this situation at present. I made a promise that surely will save me from possible future heartaches. I made a promise that from this moment on, i will be a sister, a precious gem, i will just wait, i will be patient.

That’s why hindi ko siya maishare at maikwento sa mga taong gusto ko na pagkwentuhan. Gusto kong sabihin na, Hey! kinikilig ako. Pero after that? waley. Nagkafeeling lang ako ng ganon. Yun na. Not enough basis for kwento and all. Subjective ang feelings. Just little negligible stuff that happened.I’m not writing it here also because i want to tell the whole world about it. I am writing it here kasi i need an outlet, i can’t contain the feeling anymore.

At dahil alam kong OA na yung feeling ko, napadasal na lang din ako. Hindi dahil gusto kong ipagdasal yung tao. Mas OA yun. Napadasal ako. Kasi natatakot ako para sa puso ko. Kasi pag nagpatuloy to, i know i will be crushed. Napadasal ako kasi alam kong hindi pa panahon sa mga gantong bagay para seryosohin. SO NOT! Napadasal ako kasi forever ko nang pinagdadasal na my heart be guarded. Kasi sobrang fragile ng puso. And i know God is writing my love story. :)

OA ko diba? i know i know. At para sa mga nagbasa hanggang dito na may care sa pinagsasasabi ko, you can laugh at me pero grabe hindi ko narin naiintindihan ang feeling. ang OA kasi talaga. OA yung hormones ko. Kei?

Kung tinapos mong basahin to. magaling! ang tiyaga mo :))

the 2010 wishlist

haha alam na. ganon. sabi ko pa 2009 ko ito ipopost at iiwanan dun. but well, tamad. :))
Haha. Okay. So sabi ko imma make 2010 my year. At dahil happiness kong i-share ang wishlist ko. Okie. :D

DISCLAIMER: this is just for fun and destressing not for anything else. :D

1. Traditional Debut
 Well. Ito ay wish talaga simula pagkabata pa. as in. kahit di na uso yun ngayon. SUPER LIKE ko yun. Haha. Kasi ganon. Masaya ito. Feeling ko royalty. Feeling ko princess. Ganon. Like ko mag bongga long gown. Ganyan.  Tapos 18 roses and stuff. Actually kahit roses and candles lang. ganon. Haha. Tapos kasama yung mga cousins ko and lahat ng kamag anak. Actually marami akong gustong isama. Haha. As in. Like RGRV peeps. HS peeps. College peeps. And syempre YFC family. :D kaya nga Malabo to eh. Hello budget?
 
2. SEMI – REGIONAL (IMAGINARY) DEBUT PARTY
 Well this is sort of di naman talaga mangyayari or kahit anong party pa ay di talaga mangyayari. Hoho. But sooo what? Ang point lang naman ay Gusto ko lang makasama ang semi-region. Ahahahaa. SEMI-REGION = STARS. Hehe.okie? i want to be with them and have IMAGINARY FIESTA BALLS. I want to special mention PCG. :D Aww. Missing stars.
 
3. SEMI – REGIONAL IMAGINARY DEBUT PART 2.
  Naaalala ko lang ang mga kunyaring pagpplano naming ni arbee. Si arbee ang event head, tapos may worship pa. May parade din. Tapos sa PEL ulet ang venue. :) May band pa. ganyan. Haha. Tapos yung food si mommy lyka daw. Tapos emcee si mommy joana. Ganon. Tapos si mama mei kakanta. Hahahahaha. Masaya ang pag plano nito. Pantanggal stress talaga. Thanks for planning with me arbee :D


4. FOOD.
Cakes
*conti’s mango bravo
*DQ blizzard cake
*becky’s kitchen cake. Kahit ano. :D
*secret recipe’s assorted cake slices. :D
*hearts and flours hello kitty cake!
*blueberry cheesecake. Kahit saan galing. :D
 
Food
*chocolate chocolate chocolate
*spaghetti ni mama. :D
*Hagen Dazs ice cream!
*Gelatissimo!
*DQ blizzard
*Banana Split. :D
*ICED GEMS.
*yogurt sticks!
*ice cream in general.

5. Pagremember ng FAMILIES ko sa aking kaarawan.
Yes. Bilang baby ng bayan. Maraming pamilya. Hindi lamang sa yfc. Well simulan sa yfc family. Haha.  Mahirap pala mag enumerate. Basta yon. You know. ALL MY MOMMIES AND DADDIES AND ATES AND KUYAS AND NINONGS AND NINANGS. Like that. Ganyan. Batiin nila ako lahat. Perfect attendance. Maligaya ako. Haha. Kahit hindi perfect attendance. Basta may makaalala. :D plus plus plus yung hindi YFC. Yung napakagulong family tree sa masci . Sa rgrv. Sa block. Mga ganon. :)
 
6.  New Interiors for my room.
Hello arbee! Haha. Joke lang. pero gusto ko talaga ng new interiors. Not new things for my room but new interiors.
 
7. SUPER BONDING MOMENTS
             
RGRV: dance poses and peechuran all day. Haha. Or reminisce our old dances.
MASCI: kainan lang solve na.
COLLEGE PEEPS: BLOCK PICNIC. LUNETA. WITH KRISPY KREME. :D
YFC: anytime is bonding time . yung west 1 and dating torchies. Gusto ko makabond muli. :D REUNION WITH LONG LOST FRIENDS. :D  HELLO ELEMENTARY and PRE ELEM FRIENDS?  =)))
 
8. Model for a day
Gusto ko phumotohoot. Ganon. Wish ko lang. haha. Wish ko nga.

9. Lose weight, toned body, dance again
do i need to say anything else?

10. nature tripping. kahit sa laguna lang. :D

11. SURPRISE SURPRISE SURPRISE !!!!
 I love surprises. Hahaha. Di naman ako nageexpect pero ang saya saya talaga kapag may ginagawa for you na hindi mo alam tapos yung mapapa aww ka talaga. Whether its as simple as binigyan ako ng ice cream or a super heartfelt letter. Haha. Small things like that. :D
 
12. Materyal na bagay
 I will make samantala the pagkakataon. Hahaha. Bihira naman ako mag sabi ng material na bagay na like ko. :D
 
*jansport backpack for school or any bag
*laptop. Well it will come soon din naman dahil kakailanganin ko rin daw more or less sabi nila mama.
*ipod video! Haha. Oo laos na but I like. Para sound trip at movie marathon anytime :D
*portable dvd player. In place of ipod. Haha. Yun parin movie marathon. :D
*digicam of my own. Hehe. Hindi DSLR. Aanhin ko yun?  Yung pang amateur lang. basta pampeechur.
*BOOKS. Dahil andami kong gusto basahin. Pero ang superlike ko ay makumpleto ang harry potter paperback series ko. I don’t have 6 and 7. Ayun.
*shirts/blouses. Cute ones.
*new jeans and walking shorts.
*HAVS!! Haha.
*flat strappy /cute footwear
*chucks/rubber shoes
*flipflops. :D
*original hello kitty watch and necklace. :D
*kahit anong hello kitty or piglet things.
Ayon ang haba. Feeling ko nga andami pa. pero tama nay an :D pang share lang naman ee. :D lab lab lab.